26 May 2011

一个人


一个人吃饭
一个人唱K
一个人吃steamboat
一个人看戏
一个人睡觉
一个人上学
一个人回家
一个人去做spa

自从dear去了sabah后,很多东西都变了~以前两个人,现在都变成一个人了。朋友问我为什么总是一个人?为什么一个人?我不知道~我只知道自己突然想自己一个人做平时两个人做的事。想知道一个人是什么感觉。现在,我知道了。
刚开始,我一个人吃东西。叫了的食物,我只吃了一口,然后就不吃离开了。因为觉得很孤单,所以吃不下。刚开始一个人的时候,我总是很想念两个人的日子。刚开始一个人的时候,我的眼泪都会在有眼眶打转。

现在...
一个人吃东西的时候,我比以前吃更多了。我比以前大胆了。我开始习惯一个人了。不会再因为是一个人而不敢去吃东西了。有时候觉得其实一个人也很不错。一个人有一个人的开心。一个人有一个人的好处。
话虽然这样说,但我还是比较喜欢两个人的时候~哈哈哈哈哈

Jojoba SPA ♥


Woke up in the morning, what I felt was, My leg muscle pain like hell because of Chicken Run!!! I had LONG time didn't do exersice already. Too lazy. This is what I get after run an hour yesterday. *Muscle pain* =.=
Went to college and do nothing. My class was start at 2pm and I reach college around 9.30am. What can I do? Walk around college and there are no one can chat with me or accompany me. Planned to go Jojoba Spa to do a whole body massage since there are having promotion. Its only RM98* which include whole body scrub and body massage. Good idea??? LOL
Jojoba Spa open at 11am so I just waited until 11am. Walk around college and Times Square. Up and Down. Paid fees, went to laundry, went to ATM to withdraw and etc. Finally, 11am. Went up to 15th floor of Berjaya Hotel because Jojoba Spa is located there.
The package that I take was whole body scrub and massage and add an ear candle package. Total = RM182. Expensive? Erm.. Okay la. At least I enjoyed ^^
This is the 1st time I went to body massage. I don't know what I need to do. The massager was very kind. She told me what I need to do.

-Change my cloth. Take out everything and don't wear anything inside. NUDE!!! Oh Gosh!!! SHY SHY... This is my 1st time nude infront a stranger!!! I don't know her at all!!! 1st time met then want me take out everything!!!! LOL >.< I DID IT!!! NUDE!!!

-Lie on the bed and facing down. Take out everything then lie down??? Sound so wrong ==" Haha. Of course he covered my body with towel la. Not really nude la. Hehe

1st, she briefly told me what she gonna do next. Scrub my body. Strawberry scrub. This is the scrub I had choose. Scrub my leg, hand and also back. Turn my body. She used a towel to covered my eyes. This is 1 type of eye massage??? I think so. Continue scrub. Before she scrub my body, she asked me whether can scrub my chest or not. I was like erk. Can I say no?? But I paid it of course I will say yess. So I just say of course. She excuse before took away the tower. I was like. Wow. She saw everthing. Haha.
After scrub my whole body, she asked me to take shower. So, went to washroom and take shower. Next is ear candle then body massage. She asked me he same question when she want to massage my body. The answer still same. Yes. I want massage my chest too ^^ Because its part of my body. I don't mind you massage it. Haha
I enjoyed the massage very much! Very comfortable and relax.
After 2 hours, its done and I felt very tired now. Feel like want to sleep. But I have class at 2pm. So, back to college after wear my shirt.
Its a very nice experience I had. 1st time massage. What I can say was, I will come back again~ Hahahaha

Chicken Run ♥ 22.5.11

Woke up at 6am after Chun Kit call me. He woke me up. We are going to join CHICKEN RUN today. The organizer is Kenny Roger Roaster. I was freaking tired because didn't slept well yesterday night. Actually not only yesterday. I was not enough sleep since last two week. That's why I'm f*cking tired now.
6 something, Chun Kit came and fetch me. Then went to fetch Zhi Jian then depart to Shell to meet Shanz and others. There are 8 of us. Me, Chun Kit, Bai Ji, Zhi Jian, Shanz, Jane, Sinki and his gf. So, departed to Sunway because it held at there.A lot of people were participated in this run.

my number- D0290

 We run with holding a cone with an egg.

 Rojer,Sinki,Chun Kit & Zhi Jian

 Shanz, Jing Jing, Sinki'gf, and me, Cindy 

 warm up before start..

 My cone and egg ^^

 8.20am, START!!! Let's RUN!!!!

 A wonderful morning ♥

 Felt hungry when running.>.<

 500m JUST START!!!

 2.5km to go
 1.5km GO GO GO

 9.19am, I was at the end point!!!
Congratulation to myself ^^

 Next station, Sunway Lagoon!!

My lunch for today, Chicken Chop!!! RM22. Damn expensive!


*Sorry readers... I'm too lazy to type this post. =P

20 May 2011

A busy day


This gonna be a LONG LONG LONG post. I'm wonder when can I finish this post. LOL~A perfect day with a busy day. (Inro by Dominic) Ya. A very busy day. What I did today? Early in the morning, Nath asked me why im not wearing formal? i was like "huh? Why I need to wear formal?" He told me that today we will visit to Hilton Kuala Lumpur Hotel, so we need to wear formal. Hmmm... Guess what? I'm wearing a singlet with a jacket with a black jeans and a pair of informal shoes. =.=
I totally forgot that we have a trip to Hilton KL today. What to do? Think Think Think. Borrow brazer from our lecturer, Miss Moo Moo and borrow shoes from Clarin. Luckily I'm wearing a black jeans. Hehe =P Miss Moo Moo became a hair stylist this morning. She was busying with doing our hair. She tie up our hair. All the same style. Look from behind, we dun even know who is who. However, I like the hair style. I make me look more professional and freshy ^^
After finished with our hair, we departed from Berjaya Times Square to Hilton KL. Take monorail from Imbi to KL Sentral then walk to Hilton KL. It's not that far from Station Monorail KL Sentral. The weather was super damn HOT! Register at the security house. It take long time because we need to sign one by one and there are 22 of us. Finally, finished register and took the visitor pass.
Here we start our journey. Miss MooMoo brought us to HR office and met the HR officer. They are Miss Amanda and another lady. Sorry I forgot her name. They are very kind. They separated us into two droup because our group is too big. Our group start from bottom to top and the other group start from top to bottom. We will meet at 8th floor. Miss Amanda introduce us the F&B outlet of Hilton, brought us to visited the deluxe room. We are very lucky. We had the chance to visited PENTHOUSE of Hilton. This is the 1st time Miss Amanda bring college group to penthouse because normally hotel will not allowed us to visited penthouse.  See, we are so LUCKY ^^
The deluxe room was very nice especially the toilet. I LOVE the design of the toilet. So SEXY~~~ And the room design also nice and comfortable. The Penthouse! The Penthouse was super nice. The design and the feel. I LOVE it too ^^ In the penthouse, we can found jaguci and sauna. This was AWESOME ^^ Feel like want to stay there la. The room rates was RM10k ++ per night(depends on season)  I hope I can get it in one day. Haha. The only bad thing is there not allowed us to took picture of the room and F&B outlet. So sad. If not I will take a lot of photo and share it out @@
After visited room, F&B outlet, swimming pool, executive lounge and etc, the journey going to end. Thanks Miss Amanda and the other lady, Miss Paula and Miss Muazah. It's a fun and nice trip ^^ Went back to college by taxi. I was rushing because I have a date at 12pm but now is already 12.30pm. I'm late and my friend was rushing too and he still waiting for me in Times Square.
It's already 1pm when I reach college. Changed shoes and run to meet him immediately. After met my friend and talked to him, back to college again to find my colleage. They having lunch at 14th floor's cafe. Joined them there. After had lunch, went to 3rd floor Kenny Roger Roaster to take shirt. We going to join Chicken Run in this coming Sunday. When I reach there, I was shock when saw those things that I'm going to take. I thought only shirt but they also gave us a big bag of things such as maggi mee, isotonic water, yeos and etc. How am I gonna to take those things back to Kajang by bus and ALONE? There are 8 packs and it's damn heavy! Ask someone from college to help me take back to college then call Tze Xiang and Chun Kit come and fetch me today and also take those things.
Finished class at 5.30pm. Yvonne and Rebecca helped me took those things to 3rd floor strabucks. I'm waiting for Chun Kit, Tze Xiang and Zhi Jian to reach. Will going to movie with them later at 9pm. Pirates Of The Carribean(3D). I waited them since 5.30pm until 7something. I was inpatience! Feel like want to scold people dy! I want to go toilet but I can't and I was hungry, and sleepy! Super tired!
Finally, they reach. Zhi Jian helped me took those things to Chun Kit car. Now only they know how heavy is it! Went to Oldtown to have our dinner then went up to 10th floor to watch movie. Finished at 11.30pm. The movie was nice but I more prefer Fast and Furious 5. Haha. Then went back home lo. I realized that I didn't bring out key. How am I gonna back home? I don't know. LOL~ Told dear and he called his mum to open the door for me. =P Reach home already 1am. I was super tired. Sleep after took bath. Night world =)

17 May 2011

gεиτιиg ♥

Had a fun trip to Genting with Marco, Qi Zhen and Justin. Yesterday night, Marco sms me and said wanna go Genting so asked me whether I want follow or not. Of couse I want follow. It's already 9.30pm and we departed from Sungai Long around 10 something after took Justin and Qi Zhen. Arrived time, I forgot... Sorry. Haha. Jen Yoong and his friends were in Awana having party. So, we joined them once we reached.
Drink, Drank and Drunk. But I didn't drank alcohol because I don't know them. So just drank mineral water. After party, thought to Starbucks have a cup of coffee. There are 7 of us and we only had 1 car which is Myvi. Imaging 7 peoples in a Myvi. How we did that?  7 peoples in a Myvi and you know Genting was a mountain and the road was f*cking bending. I'm going to faint >.< We all became sandwiches. Haha...
When we reeach there, Starbucks was full and we decide to go to Coffee Bean. Sat down then Justin and Qi Zhen order drinks for us. But Coffee Bean was going to close because it's already 2am. At last, they walked to Starbucks and bought drinks to us. Then went back to Awana. Can't sleep after drank the Starbucks cofffee. I'm awake.
Me, Qi Zhen, Yoong, Marco and Justin chating and played at terrace. We played a very disgusting game but we had fun. Haha ^^ Played and chat until 7++am then only went sleep.
Slept for almost 1 hour then wake up. Can't fall in sleep. My mind kept thinking of something. Will talk about it later. After woke up, sat at the terrace and looked at the sky. A very nice view. I LOVE it. Went to having our breakfast after they all woke up except Marco =.= marco always sleep until very late then only wake up. Always be the last people wake up. Our breakfast for today was chicken rice. Hmmm. What I thought was actually not nice like what they said before. I vomited again when we reached hotel after breakfast. My stomach empty again >.<
Fiinally, Marco woke up. But Justin fall in sleep this time. LOL =.= Wait for him to wake up then went to Genting to find Yoong and his gang. We not went to theme park because we don't have extra ticket. *sigh* Walk around Genting while waiting for Justin. Back to KL around 5pm. Went to Cheras find ah Wen to have dinner. Then back home. I'm freaking tired now. So going to sleep after finised this post.



这两天,我的脑海里总在想着一些事。你记得吗?我问你,我每天跟你谈电话,你会不会觉得烦。你记得你是怎么回答我的吗?你说烦是不会,只是有时候会觉得没有自由。当你说这句话的时候,我停顿了一段时间。在这短短的时间,我不知道自己在想些什么。挂了电话后,我一直在想你说的那句话。没自由,没有自己的空间。我好象真的太自私了。不让你交新的女生朋友,不让你去这,不让你去那。反而我要去哪里,你都没阻止过。我真的太自私了。不知道为什么。我很想让你自由,很想让你交女生朋友,很想什么都不过问,很想不是自己一直打给你,让你觉得没自由。很抱歉,我又想起过去了。
过去的我,总是很信任男朋友。任由他交别的女生朋友,任由他去哪里,做什么。我给他的自由,太多了。就因为这些自由,我让他有机会背叛了我,我让他有机会离开了我。即使,他不是一个好男人。刚开始在一起的他,对我来说,是个好男人。一直到我们分开两地的时间久了,我才发现,给了太多的自由,等于给机会他从一个好男人变成坏男人。从一个爱我的男人,变成一个陌生人。
可能就因为这些原因,我害怕了。我怕给了你太多的自由,你会像他一样。我知道你一定会说,他是他,你是你。。可是这毕竟是我经历过的。我的过去,它成了我心里的阴影。它让我没办法给你自由。它让我没办法不时时刻刻要知道你在做什么。很抱歉,我不应该这么想。
我告诉自己,不能一直打给你了。我不要觉得没自由。我告诉自己,不能一直找你了,我要给你属于自己的空间。亲爱的,从今天起,我会改变的。

14 May 2011

这几天...



好多话想说,却不知道应该从哪里开始...
说真的,我真的觉得好累哦...
开始觉得我们失去了默契...
我们失去了以前的欢乐...
我们失去了以前所拥有的东西...

远距离的恋爱...
有多少人把握可以到永久?
我开始失去信心...
我开始失去安全感...
我开始失去我应有的勇气和欢笑...

这三天,我们都在吵架...
吵架的原因也只不过是芝麻小事...

你说我需要的是安全感...
没错,
安全感的确对我很重要...

但,
我更希望你可以有更多的时间陪我...
之前,你的工作时间都是在早上和晚上...
每一天,
即使很累了,
我好是很坚持的要自己等下去...
有时候还是睡着了...
可是电话响起时,
我很快就会跳起来...
害怕错过你的电话...
害怕错过可以与你谈天的时刻...

可是那天,
你跟我说你累了,
然后就把电话挂了...
我的心酸了一下...
可是,
你知道吗?
你不知道...
你不知道每一次即使我累了,
还是在等你电话...
你不知道,
当你因为累了而把我丢一旁的时候,
我哭了...
你不知道,
我真的觉得很难过...

你可以因为你累了然后把我丢一旁...
你可以因为你朋友然后做任何事情...
可是,
你有想过我吗?
这样对我公平吗?

或许你会觉得我太霸道了...
我总是管着你的生活...
我总是管着你,
不让你做这个,
不让你做那个...

我承认,
我是霸道...
我想要霸占你...
我想要你做的东西我都知道...
我想要你的电话簿里只有我的号码...
我想要你的skype,msn,facebook只有我一个女生...
我想要你身边的朋友都知道,
你是我的...

因为这几天的争吵,
你让我觉得自己真的很无理取闹...
因为这几天的争吵,
你不再像以前那样温柔...
因为这几天的争吵,
无论我说什么,
你都会觉得我再说反话...

你不再像以前那样,
知道我要说的是什么,
我想的是什么...

你不再像以前那样,
总是在我需要的时候出现...

你不再像以前那样,
即使我没说出口,
你也会知道我不喜欢...

你不再像以前那样,
那样的温柔体贴...

我,
真的不知道还能说什么...
现在,
你让我学会了,
沉默,
可以让一些改变...
沉默,
可以减少争吵...

你也让我知道了,
沉默,
有多么痛苦...
沉默,
会让人多委屈...

我选择沉默,
因为我不希望在你心里,
我总是抱怨多多...

我选择沉默,
因为我不想让你觉得烦恼...

我选择沉默,
是想让彼此都能够好过一些...

08 May 2011

心里话




这几天的心情真的是差到极点有好几次,都有崩溃的感觉.。我觉得好累哦觉得自己快喘不过气来了
事业,学业我都要兼顾常觉得压力很大很多时候很想放弃,但到最后,我还是坚持下来了爱情,我对自己没有信心尤其是像这样的远距离恋爱,我更是没有信心,没有把握可能是身边的例子太多了,也自己也经历过的关系吧所以现在害怕了每天都在害怕同样的事情发生在我身上第二次我每天都在等你的电话,等你的信息一直很害怕有一天,不再有你的信息和电话
很多时候,我都想要主动找你开始却怕你会觉得我很烦写好了的信息不发出去,按好了号码却没有勇气按下拨键号一直等你主动找我收到你的信息或电话,心里终会有种安慰觉得很开心因为你现在很安全… =)
有些事,我不知道你有没有发觉到我觉得我们的话题真的越来越少了真的是因为我们是畅谈电话的关系吗?因为时常说电话的关系,我们什么都说完了所以,现在也没什么好说的了真的是这样吗?其实我并不这么认为回想下我们在一起的那五个月我的意思是你在我身边的那五个月我们会没话说吗?五个月我们每天都有说不完的东西会有玩不玩的游戏...而现在你不在我身边才那么短短一个月,我们就没话说?因为我们所在的地方不一样了我们看的天空不一样了看的人事物也不一样了没有了相同的话题,没有了一样的天空话题减少了
你知道吗?我做错了一件事我让你知道了我很爱你,让你知道我不会选择离开你这是错的我不应该让你知道的我不应该让你对我充满信心你现在不害怕会失去我了吧?因为你知道我会赖着你不会放开你无可否认,我是真的很爱你因为你对我太好了因为你也让我觉得你真的爱我就因为你的好,我每天都在等你我一直一直告诉自己,就别想了吧你会回来,你会好好爱我
我应该让你觉得很困扰,很头痛,很没自由吧?因为我时常查你的facebook看看你跟谁谈过天了我会看看你跟谁交了朋友如果你跟女生交朋友了,我会不开心,我会发脾气如果我看到了你跟其他女生谈天了,我会发脾气对不起,我真的太在意了我常在想,我的自私会不会让你觉得很没自由我的脾气会不会让你觉得很反感但是我真的控制不了我没办法压抑着自己的情绪也在你面前伪装我不会这些东西我的老师没教过我我只知道在你面前,我不需要假装坚强,我不需要隐藏自己原有的情绪我可以做我自己因为我相信你爱我,可以接受真正的我因为你爱的是我
最近也常在想,我是不是该放弃了?这考验,我失败了可是想着想着,脑海里就会出现你的画面你在我难过的时候给我安慰你在我需要鼓励的时候给我鼓励你在我伤心的时候,借给我肩膀你在我生病的时候照顾我为我吃药经痛的时候为我准备热水早上起来为我准备好一切还有很多很多想到这些,我的心总会酸了下
这些日子来,你没有任何抱怨地在照顾我什么都迁就着我如果我就这么放弃了,那我不是很笨?如果我就这么放弃了,那我不是失去一个爱我疼我的男人?如果我现在放弃了,那之前的不是都白费了?如果我现在放弃了,我一定会很遗憾,很难过因为我爱你因为我需要你所以到最后,我还是不放弃一直到现在,我都没有放弃哦~
亲爱的很对不起我答应过你说我不会在你面前哭不会乱发你脾气,可是我没做到很对不起,我做不到~因为我不会隐藏自己的情绪以后我会想哭就哭,要发脾气就发脾气但是当然也会看什么事啦~不会乱发脾气~我发脾气都是有原因的啦不会无缘无故我是个醋桶很爱吃醋所以只要看到你跟女生说话或什么我就会不开心很抱歉,跟我在一起后,你不能跟女生好即使只是朋友你知道的我会不喜欢避免啦~好不好?我爱你 =)

05 May 2011

bilibala


不知为什么...最近真的超stress的~感觉快喘不过气了~到底是什么事情把我搞得喘不过气呢?我自己也不知道~只是觉得好辛苦,好辛苦~
学业-这个semester有5个subject,assignment一罗罗~我能不能在限期内完成这些assignment?答案-我尽力,但我相信我能~
事业-工作赚钱,这是我一直都在做的~每天都在找人。appointment...还有还多东西在忙~upline说帮我,我找了人,做了appointment,他却帮我延迟appointment。如果我有多余的时间,我一定自己搞定~也在这里问问吧~KL的朋友,有没有人要做part time?请inbox到我的facebook~Cindy Yap~
感情-最近都有了一些些的变化。正如我所想的,距离真的会让人改变~现在我看到了你在改变,而我也在改变~我们都随着时间和距离在变~但我深信,有一件事情,是不会变的~那就是我们都依然相爱~我有说对吗?
时间-真的觉得时间不够用啊!!!我需要更多的时间~可是,还是别做梦了~面对现实吧~真的要好好安排我的时间了~不然我真的会很惨 >.<

01 May 2011

мονιdα ♥ ρd 29-30 αρяιl

A fun trip with 2 Cheryl was ended. Where we went to? What we did? I'm going to share with you guys here. It's a little bit bored, hope you all don't mind ^^

29th April, decided join 2 Cheryl's plan to PD tomorrow. So, take train to Kepong Central and 2 Cheryl were picking up me there. When I reach Kepong Central, it's already 11.20pm. It's late.  We decided to have a drink at Moved. Yeah~ Went to bar and have a drink. Alcohol! Sometimes, I ♥ alcohol. You know why? I also don't know why. Haha =P This is the 1st time 1 went to pub or bar or club without any make up and didn't dress up myself. I just wear a singlet and a short pant and went to Moved with both Cheryl to have a drink. You know what? 3 of us were 1st time went to this place together. We were so excited! Kept took photo and dance. Enjoyed our night ♥ Went back home around 1.30am. Chit chat until 4am. Tomorrow have to wake up at 7am because we have another plan to PD! Need to wake up early. Haha ^^


Next day, 30th April. I can felt that something jumped up to my bed and kept disturbed me slept. It's a dog. Cheryl's cute dog ^^ I'm awake from slept and look at the time. It's already 7am. But 2 Cheryl still sleeping. Woke Cheryl Lim up and ask her to wake another Cheryl up. "Let her sleep late a bit because later she needs to drive" Cheryl Lim told me. So, continue sleep until 8 something then only wake up. Depart to PD after prepared everything.
Don't know what time we reach PD. Can't remember. Having our breakfast when we reach PD. Then went to find a hotel which has day use. But, too bad. We can't find. So went to beach to take photo. Before that, we went to a temple to bay bay~ haha.. We took some photo at the temple too ^^
Went to beach after temple. Took a lot of photo there. Very fun and the weather were super hot. I knew my skin will become dark after this trip. But it's worth because we have a fun trip ^^
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