朋友，我又想你了❀

这两天，
真的...
不知怎么了~
想起我们的友情，
我哭了~
已经两天了~
觉得好心疼哦~
我好想回到那时候...
我们还是好朋友的时候~
我真的好想念哦~真的~

尤其是今天，
看着别人对我的安慰，
我又哭了~
到底是怎么了呢？
朋友~
我真的不知道我们到底怎么了~
告诉我好吗？

我真的很希望，
我们可以像以前一样~
什么事都一起分担~
什么事都一起分享~

为什么总是这样？
我真的不是一个好朋友吗？
我那么难相处吗？
还是说，
我的样子原本就很让人讨厌？

为什么越在乎的，
离我越远？
为什么我在乎的朋友，
到最后还是离我最远？
我最想珍惜的，
为什么离我越远了？

真的很难过~

朋友，你知道吗？
我真的很在乎你...

мч fяιεиd ❀

A friend...
What is friend? Any answer? Any defination?

A friend is the person who help you when you're in trouble.

A friend is the person who care about you when you're facing some problem.
A friend is the person who care about how you treat them.
A friend is the person who talk to you when he/she need a listener.
A friend is the person who listen to you when you talk to them.
A friend is the person who lent you their shoulder when you need it.
A friend is the person who will tell you everything about him/her.
A friend...

Ya!
This is a friend.

I forgot since when we far away from each other.
Last year?
This year?

Do you remember the time when we hang out togather?
Do you remember the time we tell our secret to each other?
Do you remember the time when we having lunch togather?
Do you remember the time when we shopping togather?
Do you remember the time when we went to steamboat togather?
Do you remember the memories between us?
Do you remember???

A lot of questions on my mind now.
Keep asking myself
What is the reason?
What make us change?
Time?
Distance?
Or something happened between us but I don't know.

Since when we not close to each other?
Since when we don't tell anything to each other?
Since when we don't hang out togather?
Since when we changed?

Question again.
Tried to find an answer for it.
But there is no answer in my heart.
I can't find any answer.

Can you tell me?
Can you tell me what had happened?
Can you tell me if you dun like me?
Can you tell me if I make you angry?
Can you tell me if I did wrong?

I really appreciate the friendship between us.

I tried to find a topic for us,
but I failed.
I tried to know what you had happened,
but I failed.
I tried to get in your topic,
but I failed.
I tried to do anything,
and I failed too.

Why it become like that?
Everyone will just keep far away from me.
From a best friend to a friend.
From a friend to a stranger.

At some time in the past,
we were best friend.
At some time in the past,
we shared anything.
At some time in the past,
we...

Now,
we not as good as before.
Now,
we not sharing anything.
Now,
everything change.

Why I always fail in friendship? 

Maybe I'm just not a good friend for anyone.

I'm just a failure in friendship.

=(

dои'τ αsκ мε ωнч...

Don't ask me why,
Because you don't understand...

Don't ask me why,
Because you can't understand...

Don't ask me why,
Because You're not me...

Don't ask me why,
Because I have my own reason...

Don't ask me why,
Because I can't tell the reason...

Don't ask me why,
Because I don't know how to tell...

dοи'τ чου κиοω ♡

 

2 months before, we can sms at least 100 message per day.
Now, not even reach 10 message per day.
2 months before, we can call for few hours and talk for few hours eventhough we got nothing to say and just keep quiet but we still can feel happy because we were keep in touch.
Now, we only call before sleep and there is only 45 minutes.

In this 45 minutes, we say nothing.
In this 45 minutes, we just keep quiet and waiting for each other to sleep.
In this 45 minutes, what you always say to me is, "dear, I'm very tired today. I want sleep dy."

Do you know?
In this 45 minutes, I got a lot of things to say. BUt I didn't tell because you said that you are tired and want to sleep.
In this 45 minnutes, I hope youu will tell me what had happened and how was your day but you didn't tell.
In this 45 minutes, I hope you will asked me how am I today? Is't everything fine? Is't good? Are you happy today? Are you missing me? But, you didn't...

Something change in this 2 months time.
It's changing. From 100 message changed too 10 message per day.A few hours call change to 45 minutes or even less than 45 minutes call.

Many unwilling things happened on me but you don't know because you never ask.  When I told you what had happened, did you listen to what I said?Did you? I don't know. I always tell myself that you did! You're always listen to me because you love me.

Sometimes, I wish you're beside me when I was awake from a bad night mare.
Sometimes, I wish you're beside me when some unwilling things happened on me.
Let me your shoulder, give me a big hug, and say that you will always with me no matter what happen.

⊱ 我们分手吧 ⊰

终于，
让我等到这么一天...
熬了那么久，
终于，
你回来了...
看到你平安回来...
我真的很高兴...
我想给你一个大大的拥抱，
然后在你耳边轻声对你说，
“亲爱的，你终于回来了...我好想你...”

可是，
很难过...
当你回来时，
你并没有给我拥抱，
你只是走过我的身边，
然后说，
“我回来了”
你带着“她”回来了...
虽然，
她只是来我们家坐坐，
等她父母来载她...
可是，
我真的很不喜欢他在这里出现...
她很自然的，
走向你妈，
跟你妈谈天...
看到这情景，
我很讨厌！
我直接就在她面前骂她说，
“不要接近她，不要装熟！你很让令人讨厌！”
骂着她，
我哭了...
你走出来，
对我说了一句，
“你干嘛骂人家？人家哪里得罪你了？”
我的反应是，
刮了你一巴，
然后说，
“你不要吵！不关你的事！我真的很讨厌她！”
当我错手刮了你那一巴，
我愣着了...
我不知道还可以说什么...
因为我做错了...

你知道你做了什么吗？
你刮回我了！
而且是连续三巴，
然后对我喊着说，
“你够了！不要再胡闹了！我们分手！”

分手？这句话是你说出口的吗？
“好！分就分！”
我答应了...
我边哭边收拾我的东西，
准备离开你的家...
你妈前来阻止我离开...

我对你妈说，
“八个月了！八个月！我忍耐了那么久！这四个月一直等他回来！多么难过，多么辛苦我还是等他回来了！可是我得到什么？他现在要跟我分手了！我等了那么久，等的那么苦！换来的是什么？换来的只是一句分手！我觉得自己很笨！我为什么要那么笨在这边苦苦等他回来，然后让他跟我说分手？值得吗？怎么我那么笨？怎么同样的事情要发生在我身边第二次？怎么他答应我的东西都做不到？他说过我永远是他的！他说过不会离开我，不会不要我的！可是现在呢？我恨死他！我恨死他！”

我一直哭，一直哭...直到...



我醒来，才发觉原来只是一场梦...当我起身的时候，我的眼泪一直流...我不知道为什么...拿起电话打给dear...吵醒了正在睡梦中的他...当他接起电话，我说不出口...我只能一直哭一直哭...哭的好辛苦...他一直安慰我，一直问我什么事，一直叫我不要再哭了...
过了一段时间，我才啃咽地跟他说我发恶梦了...我告诉他说，我梦到他不要我了...过后我就只是一直哭...我没办法停，因为我太害怕了...梦境太真了...他陪着我，一直到我停止哭泣，一直到我睡着...

8个月 ♡

时间说快不快，说慢不慢~
不晓得你记得吗？

我们在一起已经八个月了~

谢谢你，

这八个月以来，

都那么的爱我...

谢谢你，

这八个月以来，

都那么的疼我...

谢谢你，

这八个月以来，

我很幸福...

虽然，

我们偶尔会吵架，

但是，

我们很快就会和好...

虽然，

你现在不在我身边，

但是，

我偶尔还是感觉到你在我身边...

亲爱的，

我有很多话想说...

记得吗？

我说过，

你变了...

什么变了？

很多东西都变了...

我们不再时时刻刻联络这彼此...

我们不再时时刻刻关心彼此...

我们不再时时刻刻问候着彼此...

我们甚至会忘记彼此说过的话...

这是我最不想要的...

不知为什么，

我的心里总是很不安...

总觉得，

自己没办法维持这段感情...

我跟你说，

我对自己，

没信心...

你对我说，

要对你有信心，

更要对自己有信心...

过去的，

就让他过去，

不要再想...

毕竟，

你是你，

他是他...

你们是不一样的人...

你说过一句让我觉得很感动的话，

你说：

这辈子，

我都是你的...

这辈子，

不会让我离开你...

这辈子，

都不会放手...

这辈子，

我注定是你的...

这辈子，

我只属于你的...

听到这话，

我应该开心...

是的...

我笑了...

可是，

没多久，

我笑不出了...

同样的话，

只是从不同的人口中说出...

我问自己，

我可以相信你一次吗？

我可以相信你跟他真的不一样吗？

你要我对你有信心...

你说你会做到...

一定会做到...

我可以相信你一次吗？

也是最后一次...

在这辈子，

你做不到我的第一个...

但，

我希望你是最后一个...

这样，

可以吗？

dear啊~

我真的太多话想说了...

现在一定说不完...

我在这边等你回来，

然后慢慢跟你说哦~

哈哈~

期待着八月十五号的到来~

期待着与你重遇的时候~

亲爱的，

我爱你 ♥♥♥

мαgιс sωεερs ноυsεκεεριиg εxнιвιτιοи ♥

If you are in same college with me (Berjaya University College of Hospitality), I think you knew what am I saying. Haha XD
All right, get into point. Ya, we had organize an exhibition in college housekeeping suites. We are here creating the awareness to you guys to understand and know more about housekeeping.
The first day which is yesterday, Thursday (9.6.11). We hit our target! 100 people had visited to our exhibition and the feedback we get from them overall were good! SUCCESS!!! Whee ^^
Everyone also have their own responsibility.Me, Sabrina, Su Mei, Janice and Amanda were responsible on bed making. Sattis, Pui Yee and Clarin were in the batthroom; Daryl and Rebecca were doiing the tile; David and Winnie were showing how to clean the furniture in hotel in a proper way;alvin and Yvonne and Yumi ding the windows; Asher responsibled on cupboard; Joanne explained all the chemical we used in housekeeping; Nath and Charmaine were the reception.
Our exhibition start at 9am and end at 1pm. We all were busy with our own job. Bed maker were so pity because we need to repeat and repeat make up the bed and mess up the bed! LOL~~ Mess up the bed aftter make up the bed! I don't know how many times I did the same thing! Super tired!!! Not only me but everyone! I can sure that everyone were tired after this. However, we enjoyed our job =) We get free lunch after finished our exhibition from Berjaya UCH too~ MCD!!! Haha ^^
After the exhibition, everyone was tired and we have HR mid-term after exhibition! Arghhh!!! No mood... Ishhhhhhh

Second day which is today, Friday(10.6.11)
Today was very free because today don't have so much people as yesterday.The reason is everyine are haviing their class in the morning. The time they end class, our exhibiton end. So, we don't have that much visitor. Today only 20+ visitor. But its ok. We have fun too =) Exhibition end at 2.30pm. Then went to our Malaysian Studies class. Today had mid-term too.. I haven study yet!!! But I get 17 correct out of 25 questions. Haha ^^ after that back home lo =)

gяαиdfατнεя 100 dαчs мεмοяαιl ❀01&020611

1st June 2011
Went back to Pahang today because its my grandfather 100 days memorial. I don't know is it the real word to describe this. Sorry because my english was seriously broke @@ I will do my bbest to improve de. So, if anything wroonog then you can straight away tell me =) appreciate a lot...  Went to LCCT to fetch my aunty and cousin who are stay at Singapore. They will followed us back to Pahang too. Ya, and also my cousin and his girlfriend. Haha XD
Reach home was already late. Its 12 midnight! And I can't sleep because we need o wake up at 4am to prepared everything for my grandfather. Today, he will move in to his "new house" ( as what my aunty told me) So just kept chit-chat with my aunty until the next day.
Everyone woke up early to prepared. I didn't help out anything because there have a lot of people busying. So, I just sat there and chat with my aunty. Haha ^^ Until don't know what time, the person what we call in chinese as nan mo lou reach. Now is the time we start everything. I mean the ceremony.
After thhose ceremony in grandmother house, we went to grandfather's "new house"(grave) to worship. A lot of ceremony too. Present those food we prepared early in the morning at grandpa's grave. Something unwilling happened. But just forget about it and I wont mention it here. What I hope is everyone happy. I know grandpa also want to see us live happily. No argue, no tears...  Stay with SMILE =)
2th June
Went back to KL with Josh and his girlfriend. We went to watched movie at Berjaya Times Square before we back to our house. Haha~ X-Men First Class. I felt bored and sleepy. After watched movie then went back to Kajang alone. Too bath, then sleep. Night world! Another tired day >.<

ριсс ♥ 300511

OoopssS... Its end of May now and today was Monday! Guess what? We have a field trip to Putrajaya Iternational Convention Centre today. Yeah~ So excited!!!
Woke up early in the morning and prepared everything then went to college by train. We need to reach college before 9am. I'm on time. Hehe ^^ Wait until 9am and everyone had get ready to visit PICC. After make sure everyone are reach, we departed to PICC.
A sunny day. It make everyone in a good mood! Haha. Went to lobby to meet others when we reach PICC. Ms.Anita, the people who in charge on us brought us to visit some cenvention hall of PICC.
We visited Perdana Hall, Prinary hall and  also heads of states hall. I took a lot of photos there. Haha... Went back to college after visited PICC. Another assignment!!! FIELD TRIP REPORT!!! Oh Golly >.<

вяоgα нιlls ♥ 29 May 2011

Yeah~ Today is Sunday and I'm busy with my assignment now! Sunday should be a very relax and fun day! But I'm busy with my assignment for whole day! Headache with those assignment~ *sigh*
*Knock Knock Knock* someone knocked my door. Its dear's sister, Shee Wen. She told me that she and her family want to go Broga Hills and asked me whether I want followed or not. Of course I said yes because I got nothing to do and I was freaking stress with those assignment. Oh Golly~
So, went to Broga Hills with dear's family. We are going to hiking the Broga Hills. This is my first time hiking. Before go to Broga Hills, we went to a temple which located not far from Broga Hills. The temple was big and nice. We took a lot of photo there. Haha ^^
After finised walk around the temple, we went to Broga Hills and start our hiking. The way was a bit difficult to walk but I was excited to hike until the top of hill. I forgot what time we start the hiking.What I know is, we used around 30 minutes to finished our hiking. So fast? Haha~ Its because we only hiked half of the hill then went down. You know why? We felt very tired after hiked half of the hill and I felt faint. LOL~
After finished hiking, went back home and take rest. I was super tired. Sleep after took bath. Then wake up, went to dinner then back home and sleep  again. I was super tired! Night world =)