对不起 ♥♥

或许吧...
因为我一直都在逼你，让你觉得压力很大。所以你才需要它...

很抱歉，之前答应你的东西，我都没有做到...
我说过，我不会阻止你吸烟，可是，我没有做到。
我说过，我不会轻易在你面前掉眼泪，可是，我没做到。
我说过，我不会乱发你脾气，可是我没有做到。
我说过，我不会阻止你做你喜欢的事。可是，我没有做到。
我说过...很多东西，可是，我都没有做到。

从今天开始，
我是真的不会阻止你吸烟--------你得到允许了，以后都不用问我了。要吸就吸吧
从今天开始，
我不会再在你面前掉眼泪--------即使再难过，在伤心
从今天开始，
我不会在发你脾气-------任何时候
从今天开始，
我会让你做你喜欢做的事-------任何的事情
从今天开始，
我不会再逼你------逼你戒烟
从今天开始，
我不再逼你----逼你做任何事

sомετнιиg τо τεll αgαιи (┬＿┬)

我不知道...你会不会觉得我烦；你会不会觉得我傻；会不会觉得我...

很多事情...我都选择用写的来告诉你；我都选择不说出口；我都保持沉默...

原因是...我不知道该怎么说出口；我不善于表达；我不会说话...

我之前说的...你都做到了。而我我应该觉得开心...可是，是我一直对你要求的关系吗？我并没有很开心...

看着你like我的status还是什么的，我在想，是真心的like吗？还是只是为了敷衍我？我写的东西，你有用心的去看，去明白吗？如果没有，我宁愿你不like任何一个东西。

还有就是...

你发觉到吗？每一次你跟我说起一件事的时候，都会跟那女的有关系。可以停止吗？你知不知道我每次听到你说那女的说...我心里就会很不爽！你的话题中，总是带着那女的！我不要听那女的说什么！我要听的是你在想什么，你发生过什么事。

我写这些东西，并非在抱怨些什么。只是，我想让你知道我在想什么。

最近的我总是很emo...只要看到不喜欢的东西，我就会emo...我太在乎你了吗？或许吧~在我很emo的时候，而你不知道要说什么的时候，可以给我一个拥抱吗？只要一个拥抱就好了！可以吗？

这是...心想...反正...

这是我...

第一次，在学校的厕所躲起来偷偷掉眼泪

第一次，真的不想跟你说话或看到你

第一次，气自己没有那种能力

第一次，想到你就掉眼泪

问自己...

有必要吗？

有这样的需要吗？

要那么难过吗？

已经不是第一次了，还在伤心些什么？

我是笨蛋吗？

好想问你...

吸烟真的有那么开心吗？

你真的那么stress吗？

你真的那么需要香烟吗？

不吸烟，很辛苦吗？

想问问他的朋友...

你们吸烟一定要带着他去吗？

你们吸烟一定要问他要不要去吗？

你们吸烟的时候，怎么不想想后果？

你们吸烟，会让身边人难过，你们知道吗？

很多时候...

你朋友说需要时间，

好...我给你时间！

你朋友说不要逼你，

好...我不逼你！

一个月过去...

两个月过去...

结果呢？

我得到的是什么？

我不知道为什么自己就是不能再继续忍下去！

我不知道自己为什么要那么伤心难过！

答应我的事情，你有多少是真的做到给我的？

我要你每天睡醒和睡觉前跟我说“我爱你”，

刚开始，你做到了！

但，并没有维持很久！

每一天，我总是提醒着你！

一直到现在，我也不提醒了！！

知道为什么吗？

因为我觉得一直要我提醒的话，很没意思！

那天，当我再次提醒你你的时候，

你问了我一个问题！

你说，

“为什么要时常把这句话挂在嘴边？爱一个人是用行动来证明就可以了啦！不需要把它挂嘴边！”

当你说这句话的时候，突然觉得自己好多余！

心想...

我只希望你每天可以跟我说我爱你，可是却让你觉得多余了！

真的很不好意思！

你知道吗？

我好难过哦！

在难过些什么？

其实我也不知道！

反正...

我就是没有影响力

反正...

我就是一个失败的女朋友

反正...

我没资格生你的气

反正...

我并没有那么重要

一份礼物 ♥♥♥

哈咯..朋友们，我回来咯！吃饱了吗？睡觉了吗？有想我吗？哈哈^^我刚从pasar malam回来哦。开心开心~ 吃了好多好吃的食物，也肥了不少。哈哈...要开始减肥咯~

明天星期一了。开学咯！感觉好久都没去上课了~哈哈~大家要早点睡哦~早睡早起身体好~（可是我没做到..）(*^__^*) 嘻嘻~好啦~跟大家分享完我就要去睡觉了。

突然很想收到一份礼物。一个透明的玻璃罐子里，装着365粒糖果。

 

不知道为什么~哈哈~一天一粒，感觉甜甜蜜蜜 ♥♥ 刚跟dear说了。他说他会送我的。谢谢dear~爱你 ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ 这是我第一次跟你要礼物哦~

还有就是，我很累，要睡觉了。大家晚安咯！哈哈~ (～﹃～)~zZ

τнαиκs ♥

Sunday Sunday Sunday... What can I do in this bored weekend? Think to take my new lens from my friend but she didn't reply me although I had send A FEW message to her. What to do? ==" Ya... Is weekend today and tomorrow have to g o to college to study dy... Monday will be a busy and tired day for me... I HATE Monday!!! 

I'm doing my assignment now. Facebook-ing and blog-ing while doing assignment. I can't concentrate with my assignment. -sigh- Listening a song that I super LOVE this few day--- I Think Of You. Yeah~ It's also one of my blog song. Is't nice? Ya... I like it  so much. Meaningful and nice. 

No point I said this all rubbish here. What I'm trying to post? I also don't know. Haha ^^

Hmmm.. Oh ya.. I remember what I want to say le. Hehe. Last few day, my eye get injuct and I absent to college for 2 days. I miss 3 classes. Miss many thing in college. Dear fetched me to visit doctor. Doctor gave me eye drop and antibiotic. Rest in home for 2 days. It's super duper bored. And now, my eye was recover. 

Thanks to all my friends. Thanks for caring me. A special thank you to dear and his family because of their care. Thanks for care me when I'm in sick or whatever.  Thank you very much^^

♥ Ι jυsτ нορε ♥

最近是怎么搞的？

总是吵个不停~

我是怎么了？

时间越靠近，

我越害怕~

时间越靠近，

我想得越多~

我，

到底是怎么了？
心里一直都有好多话想说，
可是总是开不了口。

还有一个月多，

你就要去KK internship了。

朋友跟我说，

“我把他带去KK，

可以吧？我会帮你好好照顾他的。”

我的嘴上总是说，

“随你的便，

带去吧~

我才不介意。”

可是，

你知道吗？

我真的好不舍得哦！

这一去就是几个月，

叫我怎么习惯呢？

我跟你说，

我不想你去那么远，

我会舍不得，

我会很想你。

我真的会很想你！

你说，

我应该学会独立。

将来，

我也回去internship，

你也会舍不得我去那么远。

我知道，

你只是为你的前途着想。

所以，

我并没有阻止你。

我独立...

已经几年了。

这几年，

就算是恋爱，

也是远距离的恋爱。

可是，

结局却不是自己想要的。

就因为我总是因为远距离恋爱而让自己很受伤，

所以，

我相信，

距离会破坏美好的爱情。

这就是我不希望你去那么远的原因~

因为我害怕了。

我害怕，

因为距离的关系，

我要跟我深爱的人分开。

我害怕，

因为距离的关系，

我们不再像以前那么亲密。

我更害怕，

因为距离，

我们的关系就这样结束。

因为有了经验，

所以害怕。

因为爱你，

所以更怕。

但，

我不可能自私的阻止你的前程。

所以，

我让你去了。

我不奢望些什么。

我只希望，

当你去到那边的时候，

你可以好好照顾自己。

我只希望，

当你在那边的时候，

跟我一样，

会在远方想念着彼此。

我只希望，

你跟我一样，

会好好的爱着彼此。

我只希望，

不会再次被背叛。

我只希望，

你平安回来，

然后告诉我，

“亲爱的，

我回来了。”

complicated feeling

If you are me, will you think care that? Before couple, I can saw ur comment,or you status like or whatever thing that you did on my facebook wall. But after few months we couple, I can't even saw any comment or your status like on my wall.Maybe it's not important for you. Maybe is me too care all this things.

Everytime I on my facebook, the 1st thing I check the notifications. Is there any notification about you? But what I get is nothing. Your name was not there and you more active on like or comment on others status. Just because of we stay togather now? Just because of we face each other everyday now? I admire when I saw others couple always write something sweet on their another's wall.. I jealous when you just comment or like on other people's wall expecially GIRL~ I told you before, I dun like you too close to other girl just because of i will jealous. Maybe you feel that I'm stupid and it's not fair to you but SORRY, that's me.. I know you have your own friends. You accommodate me everything. I know you always do your best to treat me. Thank you very much.

Dear... I suddenly miss the time when we haven couple. I feel that you more care me on that time. Sorry, I'm selfish.. I too care everything about you and I love you deeply..

for those who are lovelorn

Why so many people lovelorn in this few day de?

For those who are lovelorn, 

please, stay strong.. You are not lost everything. You still have your family, your friend.. You're not lost anything. It's not worth for you to sad because of someone who dun love you. Come on.. Look forward la... there are so many wonderful things are waiting for you.. Everyone will lovelorn.. 

Of cause, I lovelorn before. I lost someone that I love. I love him but at last, he did something that I very very hate. I cried, I close myself in a room, I didn't eat, I didn't drink. But will he come back to me? The answer is NO!!! He wont come back and he leave me alone to face the sad.

My tear drop every night, but he don't know. All my friends told me that time will let everything pass. What I need is just TIME~ Time will calm me down. Time will lead me out of the sad and tear. My friends kept comfort me and support me. They accompany me all the time. They care me more than him. They told me it's not worth for me cried because of him. Girl's tear are pearl.. How precious? Everyone know. 

Last, what I want to say is, dun feel sad because of someone who don't love you. Stay strong, Stay Happy, and pray for him/her. You will feel more better. And dun try to end up Ur life!!! 

нαρρч ναlεиτιиε ♥

Happy Valentine to all my friends ♥

First, I want says thousand thank yoou to my dear because prepared a special gift to me with all his heart~ Thank you my lover ♥

Today,once I on my facebook, I can see many of my facebook's friends are showing some sweet sweet picture. The valentine gift, photo with another half and some sweet word... Most of them are 99 roses, chocolate.(Admire>.<) 

This is the first valentine that we celebrate. My valentine gift from you is, a piece of paper with some heart shape and a photo of us in the middle. A very simple gift but full with ur heart. What I can say is DEAR, I LOVE YOU and THANK YOU for the gift♥♥

 ναlεиτιиε gιfτ fяοм dεαя ♥

  сυτε снαям ♥

What we did today was just cleaning up our room. Make our room more tidy and nice.

 Small space for us to do our homework or reading.

After clean up, our room looks more tidy and nice.

Oh ya.. The gift that dear gave to me we stick it on wall ♥

At night, we went out with dear's friends.

I'm no forget to take photo with my belove in this special day~ Love you my dear ♥

Nothing special on today. Not going to write too much about today because everyday are valentine day for me when you are beside me ♥

ρυlαυ κεταм-12-13/02/11

Woke up early in the morning, prepared everything and went to station with my beloved. Where we go? Hahahahahaha... We want to go Pulau Ketam lo... Planned it few weeks ago but now only walk with it. Hehe ^^

8am, we waited for train. Just a while, train reached and we departed to Port Klang. Bubuuuuuuuuuuuu... Train stop at every single station. "KL Sentral... KL Sentral.." The announcer announce that we reach KL Sentral. We need to change rain at KL Sentral to Port Klang. Port Klang is the last station and we knew that it take long time to reach there. Train move and stop, move and stop. Shit!!! Train suddenly stop in half way to Klang. I hate it!!! About 20 minutes, train start to move.. Time delayed.. Dear keep slept in train and I keep take photo... wakakaka

After 2 and half hours, 

 

finally we reach Port Klang.

Walked to port klang. It's take about 5-10 minutes from station KTM to Port Klang.I was super duper excited because this is the first time I took ferry~ weee~ ( I'm from village ) Hahaha

 We are in the ferry now~ ^.^

 My dear look cool~

 the sea view from ferry

 stupid dear act cute ~.~

 We love each other ♥

After half an hour,

 yeah~We reach Pulau Ketam ^^

Go and find our hotel~ Ya... just walk a few minutes then reached- HOTEL SEA LION..paid，then took key, go in our room, change cloth, then go out lo~

 

 Rent bicycle from our hotel-RM5 per day

 

We bike around and took our lunch.We planned that we want to eat seafood for this two day.. ONLY SEAFOOD.. Wakakaka

 We having out lunch at here

 Fried Sotong ♥

 xiong tong lala ♥ my favourite

 lala, sotong, 2 bowl rice, and 2 100plus=RM42.40

Expensive? Cheap? For me was ok ok la... haha

After finished our lunch, bike around Pulau Ketam. From started of pulau until the end of pulau. And something emergency happen. A dog chased us. Scary dog...

Oh ya... We also took a lot of photo at he end of pulau.Let me show some of that~ haha

*for more picture, please view http://www.facebook.com/album.php?id=1597506218&aid=90485

I slept early tonight.

The next day, woke up at 10.30am then go took our breakfast. After breakfast buy something back to dear's family then took ferry back to Port Klang.Then take KTM back to Kajang.