now... the clock is showing 3.40am... but i still in front of my laptop... facing my facebook... my blog... my mind... thinking something... Cant fall in sleep... Dun noe why... Feel like something will happen... UNEASY!!! what will happen? What i'm thinking right now、 I noe i'm scare now...
today... i received a call.. From my ex bf... Not J But R...(R is my ex bf b4 J...dun get confused) he called me today... Suprised with this... juz to greet me... lol... He said tomorrow he come to kl.... And maybe he will come n find me... Suddenly... I scare... What I scare? I dun noe... This is the reason why i cant sleep even now is 4 am and i hav class at 8.30am? Erm.... I also dun noe~
What's in my mind now? something flash back~ R? NO!!! It's not R!!! It's J!!! All the memories... Everything... Flash in my mind... STOP IT PLEASE!!!! Again... My tears drop out again... Dun noe why... Someone can help me?
Today...
Wake up 9am something...
CRAZY!!!!
Nothing to do but still wake up early...
Siao liao la....
first thing I do...
Sure open my laptop and log in to facebook la...
Then go brush tooth la...
Bored lei...
Whole day faced FACEBOK...
Actually I'm waiting someone come and fetch me out de~
but dun noe what time oni he come...
so juz play facebook while waiting for him lo....
Finally...
4pm something...
He say he is on the way le la~
Prepared everything and go out...
over night at his house tonight...
Din back home o...
Where we go?
hhhhmmmmmm...
Go to his house eat steamboat lo...
Paiseh la...
I tot juz with his family...
shit...
Not only his parents n brother sisther o...
His uncle aunty all also there...
OMG!!!
Reach there only he told me...
Shit!!!!
The 1st step I step into his house...
His mother said...
Shee Yang bring his gf come o...
OMG!!!
Aunty a aunty....
Dun misunderstand lei...
We juz friend...
aiyo...
Paiseh paiseh la~
haha ~
After ate...
Shee Yang fetch me to 21st century to lim teh n c the view...
Not bad but it's rain so we cant c the view ><>
Today... early in the morning... My mum wake me up... Asked me stand by because my uncle was on the way... Where I want to go? Actually... My Grandpa was sick... His hands... His legs was swollen~ My heart was paint when I saw him... His skin was dry... How was he become like this? Nobody know that... He was sick for few day dy... Few days din eat... Juz sleep at home... My grandma was worried about him... She told me that she dream that all my grandpa's friends who pass away were come and find my grandpa... My grandma was scared... I know... grandma... Grandma.... Stay strong... Grandpa will be fine... He wont let you alone to face this world... Because he LOVE you... He will always beside you...
About 10am something... Uncle reach and we go kl after prepared everything... Fetch grandpa to hospital to have a body check....
1pm something... We reack kl... Grandpa said that he feel like want to vomit... Uncle stop his vehicle aside... My grandpa vomit... And... I vomit too when saw him vomit... USELESS CINDY!!!!
1.30pm... we rech Tung Shin Hospital... It's lunch time... We need to wait until 2pm only can meet doctor... Waiting... Finally... 2pm... Nurse call 1 by 1... We are no.5... our turn... Register... Nurse call name then go in... Doctor Kuan... Go in... He asked situation of my grandpa... uncle told doctor everything... and asked to have a whole bady check... Doctod agreed to do that...
Waiting for body check... After that... wait for report.. After take report... meet doctor again... doctor said evrything is fine... Mayb is only the skin problem... suggest us to check with skin doctor...
make sure everything ok... Then fetch me back to wangsa maju... having dinner with them near my house... After dinner... They back to pahang lo...
go back to PAHANG today... bored at wangsa maju~ 3pm de bus... hhhmmmm... Waiting time to pass~ very slow lei!! Finally... 3pm... My seat-No.4~ same wif last time... Same seat... Same time... Same way... Suddenly... i miss you so much~ and... My TEARS... Drop out again... STOP IT Cindy Yap!!!! I told myself... Used the hand that u had holded b4 to wipe my tears... STOP cry... But... my tears still came out NON-STOP... But... You won't know... I'm thinking of you along the way back to Pahang... Can't stop... Dun noe y... IDIOT!!!! Maybe...
After 2 and half hours... Reach bus stop... Call my dad come to fetch me.... Wait abt half an hour... Damn... Bored lei~~~ Daddy faster come la...
When I reach home... i go find my grandmother... She was very happy when saw me... The 1st question she asked was: where is ur boyfriend?Why he didn't followed u come back？ When she asked this question, she have a very nice smile on her face... I know she like him... I know what she hope... I looking at her... Dun noe how to tell her that we are broke... What I said was... He is working and busy... So can't back with me... But the truth was we are broke up... Grandma... I'm sorry because I'm a lier... i lie you... I really dun noe how to tell you the truth...
My grandma told me her story... How she accepted my grandpa... How they faced all the problems... Both of their family disagree they couple... But at last... They still married... Because they lve each other... They faced every poblem together... They not give up because of each other... They strive for their future... They stay strong because oh each other...
The reason why my gandmother told me her story is because she want me to treasure... She always hope that she can c me when I get marry... She hope to c me wear wedding dress... She hope me can get a good husband... She hope me to be a good wife... She hope me happy always...
But... Grandma... Sorry that I make you dissapointed... I din treasure the one who love me and care ma... I din treasure the time when he was beside me.... Sorry that I din tell you the truth....
Finally back to wangsa maju... My bed...My home...My laptop...My facebook... Miss YOU all SO MUCH~~~~ rest at home this few day... Tired after the non-stop trip to PORT DICKSON, CAMERON HIGHLAND, SEMINYIH(fishing)~~~ And now at home... Rest for few day... damn bored man... Wan go out but no one fetch me out... PITY me... T.T
haha~ Today go fishing with Shee Yang, Lawrence, Marco and Wen... So so so hot man... what weather is it? 2.30pm until 6.30pm... Time go slow... Suddenly... raining... OMG!!! after rain stop... Go back home lo... What we get along that 4 hours? WE GET NOTHING!!!! SHIT!!!! Haha~ But... still have a fun day with them...
