now...
the clock is showing 3.40am...
but i still in front of my laptop...
facing my facebook...
my blog...
my mind...
thinking something...
Cant fall in sleep...
Dun noe why...
Feel like something will happen...
UNEASY!!!
what will happen?
What i'm thinking right now、
I noe i'm scare now...
today...
i received a call..
From my ex bf...
Not J But R...(R is my ex bf b4 J...dun get confused)
he called me today...
Suprised with this...
juz to greet me...
lol...
He said tomorrow he come to kl....
And maybe he will come n find me...
Suddenly...
I scare...
What I scare?
I dun noe...
This is the reason why i cant sleep even now is 4 am and i hav class at 8.30am?
Erm....
I also dun noe~
What's in my mind now?
something flash back~
R?
NO!!!
It's not R!!!
It's J!!!
All the memories...
Everything...
Flash in my mind...
STOP IT PLEASE!!!!
Again...
My tears drop out again...
Dun noe why...
Someone can help me?
Today...
Wake up 9am something...
CRAZY!!!!
Nothing to do but still wake up early...
Siao liao la....
first thing I do...
Sure open my laptop and log in to facebook la...
Then go brush tooth la...
Bored lei...
Whole day faced FACEBOK...
Actually I'm waiting someone come and fetch me out de~
but dun noe what time oni he come...
so juz play facebook while waiting for him lo....
Finally...
4pm something...
He say he is on the way le la~
Prepared everything and go out...
over night at his house tonight...
Din back home o...
Where we go?
hhhhmmmmmm...
Go to his house eat steamboat lo...
Paiseh la...
I tot juz with his family...
shit...
Not only his parents n brother sisther o...
His uncle aunty all also there...
OMG!!!
Reach there only he told me...
Shit!!!!
The 1st step I step into his house...
His mother said...
Shee Yang bring his gf come o...
OMG!!!
Aunty a aunty....
Dun misunderstand lei...
We juz friend...
aiyo...
Paiseh paiseh la~
haha ~
After ate...
Shee Yang fetch me to 21st century to lim teh n c the view...
Not bad but it's rain so we cant c the view ><>
Today...
early in the morning...
My mum wake me up...
Asked me stand by because my uncle was on the way...
Where I want to go?
Actually...
My Grandpa was sick...
His hands...
His legs was swollen~
My heart was paint when I saw him...
His skin was dry...
How was he become like this?
Nobody know that...
He was sick for few day dy...
Few days din eat...
Juz sleep at home...
My grandma was worried about him...
She told me that she dream that all my grandpa's friends who pass away were come and find my grandpa...
My grandma was scared...
I know...
grandma...
Grandma....
Stay strong...
Grandpa will be fine...
He wont let you alone to face this world...
Because he LOVE you...
He will always beside you...
About 10am something...
Uncle reach and we go kl after prepared everything...
Fetch grandpa to hospital to have a body check....
1pm something...
We reack kl...
Grandpa said that he feel like want to vomit...
Uncle stop his vehicle aside...
My grandpa vomit...
And...
I vomit too when saw him vomit...
USELESS CINDY!!!!
1.30pm...
we rech Tung Shin Hospital...
It's lunch time...
We need to wait until 2pm only can meet doctor...
Waiting...
Finally...
2pm...
Nurse call 1 by 1...
We are no.5...
our turn...
Register...
Nurse call name then go in...
Doctor Kuan...
Go in...
He asked situation of my grandpa...
uncle told doctor everything...
and asked to have a whole bady check...
Doctod agreed to do that...
Waiting for body check...
After that...
wait for report..
After take report...
meet doctor again...
doctor said evrything is fine...
Mayb is only the skin problem...
suggest us to check with skin doctor...
make sure everything ok...
Then fetch me back to wangsa maju...
having dinner with them near my house...
After dinner...
They back to pahang lo...
hope Grandpa will be fine....
go back to PAHANG today...
bored at wangsa maju~
3pm de bus...
hhhmmmm...
Waiting time to pass~
very slow lei!!
Finally...
3pm...
My seat-No.4~
same wif last time...
Same seat...
Same time...
Same way...
Suddenly...
i miss you so much~
and...
My TEARS...
Drop out again...
STOP IT Cindy Yap!!!!
I told myself...
Used the hand that u had holded b4 to wipe my tears...
STOP cry...
But...
my tears still came out NON-STOP...
But...
You won't know...
I'm thinking of you along the way back to Pahang...
Can't stop...
Dun noe y...
IDIOT!!!!
Maybe...
After 2 and half hours...
Reach bus stop...
Call my dad come to fetch me....
Wait abt half an hour...
Damn...
Bored lei~~~
Daddy faster come la...
When I reach home...
i go find my grandmother...
She was very happy when saw me...
The 1st question she asked was: where is ur boyfriend?Why he didn't followed u come back？
When she asked this question, she have a very nice smile on her face...
I know she like him...
I know what she hope...
I looking at her...
Dun noe how to tell her that we are broke...
What I said was...
He is working and busy... So can't back with me...
But the truth was we are broke up...
Grandma... I'm sorry because I'm a lier...
i lie you...
I really dun noe how to tell you the truth...
My grandma told me her story...
How she accepted my grandpa...
How they faced all the problems...
Both of their family disagree they couple...
But at last...
They still married...
Because they lve each other...
They faced every poblem together...
They not give up because of each other...
They strive for their future...
They stay strong because oh each other...
The reason why my gandmother told me her story is because she want me to treasure...
She always hope that she can c me when I get marry...
She hope to c me wear wedding dress...
She hope me can get a good husband...
She hope me to be a good wife...
She hope me happy always...
But...
Grandma...
Sorry that I make you dissapointed...
I din treasure the one who love me and care ma...
I din treasure the time when he was beside me....
Sorry that I din tell you the truth....
SORRY...
Finally back to wangsa maju...
My bed... My home... My laptop... My facebook...
Miss YOU all SO MUCH~~~~
rest at home this few day...
Tired after the non-stop trip to PORT DICKSON, CAMERON HIGHLAND, SEMINYIH(fishing)~~~
And now at home...
Rest for few day...
damn bored man...
Wan go out but no one fetch me out...
PITY me... T.T
haha~
Today go fishing with Shee Yang, Lawrence, Marco and Wen...
So so so hot man...
what weather is it?
2.30pm until 6.30pm...
Time go slow...
Suddenly...
raining...
OMG!!!
after rain stop...
Go back home lo...
What we get along that 4 hours?
WE GET NOTHING!!!!
SHIT!!!!
Haha~
But...
still have a fun day with them...
又来了~
我又来了~
对不起~
我没有好好照顾自己~
对不起~
我没有听你的话~
对不起~
我又做了那件事~
对不起~
我让你失望了~
可是不知为什么~
今天又有那个冲动~
或许，
你们不知道我做了什么~
知道这件事的人，
只有一个~
而我，
也知道自己这样子很不对~
我不应该这样~
对不起~
如果真的有一天，
我有什么事~
也是我自己造成的~
对不起~
我没听你说话~
对不起~
所有关心我的人~
对不起~
我真的很没用~
星期五-
今天不知为什么~
很不舒服~
一直想吐~
上了一堂的课~
其他的都没去了~
在recreation room睡着了~
醒来，
想吐~
去到厕所，
却吐不出~
头很晕~
很痛~
感觉全身没力气~
每一次想吐却吐不出~
讨厌~
结果在厕所晕倒了~
还要麻烦人家把我抬出来~
paiseh啦~
哈哈~
marco & shee yang 在我回家~
回到家~
也没留在家休息~
跟他们出去了~
cameron highland~
星期六-
早上7点check in酒店~
1点就要check out了~
睡了两个小时我就起身了~
走路出去买东西~
等他们起床~
再出去吃东西，
到处走走~
傍晚就回kl了~
找tien xia~
晚上不知几点，
回shee yang的家~
在他的家过夜~
星期日-
没什么特别~
起床~
去吃东西~
回shee yang家休息~
傍晚 去打篮球~
然后去吃晚餐~
回家睡觉~
星期一-
四点多起身，
回自己家，
准备去学校~
去到学校~
也忘了自己做了什么~
12点半~
去上课~
上完课~
去hostel~
喝酒~
一直笑不停~
傻了~
很迟睡~
星期二-
早上觉得不舒服~
头晕~
头痛~
没去上课~
吃早餐~
然后就去leisure mall走走~
突然想煮菜~
买菜回去hostel煮~
这一天~
很幸福~
五个帅哥厨师煮给我吃~
开心~
吃饱~
没多久~
回自己家了~
上网upload照片~
然后睡觉~
今天很早就起床咯~
然后就去学校咯~
7.15am就到学校了~
8.30am的课~
哈哈~
然后就去mamak吃早餐咯~
roti bakar + limau ais~a
我的早餐~
哈哈~
hhhhmmmmm~
然后就回学校上课咯~
pastry class~
今天学了french baquette~
OMG！！！
好硬哦~
但是里面是软的啦~
哈哈~
还不错吃~
还有就是dough&dinner rolls~
嘻嘻~
蛮好吃的~
差不多一点多才放学~
两点还有课~
还要冲凉~
不知赶得及吗？
哈哈哈~
但是，还好啦~
赶得及~
没有迟到哦~
去到ict lab，
老师都还没来~
就online facebook咯~
哈哈~
两点半了~
老师还是没来~
朋友打去问~
才知道...
原来老师生病了~
没来~
yeah~~~
没课了~
哈哈~
回到recreation room坐着休息下咯~
没多久就睡着了~
四点~
shee yang放学了~
然后就跟shee yang, lawrence 还有nicole去买衣服咯~
我只是去走走看看啦~
最近破产了~
不能再买衣服了~
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~
五点多就回学校咯~
没多久就回家了啦~
回到家，7点~
哈哈~
就上网写blog了~
哈哈~
今晚，
突然想去走走~
嘻嘻~
就这么决定啦~
wangsa maju的朋友，
今晚如果看到有个女生在外面到处走，
不要以为是那些东西哦~
哈哈~
是我哦~
嘻嘻~
今晚出去走走咯~~~
