lalala~

Haha~this few day what i done IS...
-wake up early in the morning...
-brush my tooth n take a fresh bath (it's very cold in the early morning)...
-having my breaksfast then go out to college...
-go 7-11 bought COFFEE...(coffee is my spiritual support><) -take train to collge...(the STUPID train is DAMN SLOW...jam...shit...late dy><) -reach college and enter to the class... -start learning...(actually what lecture talk i really dun noe...juz look at the notes n hope i can understand it) -break time-go eat wif my frenz~Cheryl,Lek Wong,and Dennis...
-after lunch,go back college study again...------------------

----haiz...boring a
-YEAH!!!END CLASS luuu...hahahahahahahaha------------------HAPPY^^
-where v go???nth to do...hahaha~v go sing k...eat sushi king...---------------NICE
-7pm-the time v going to say bye bye~haha~back home lo~------------------TIRED><> Yesterday my eyes suddenly turn red...What's wrong wif my eyes???-------------PAIN!!! T.T
Not enough sleep???
Erm...Maybe...haha~
Haiz...Tired this few day...

Tomorow saturday...
Haha~BACK HOME luuuu~--------HAPPY^^
MISS MY MUM'S COOKS...

17/5/2010

Wow...Today i learned cutting in college(cut vegetables la...haha~not hair cutting o><)...haha~FUN!I like it~BUT...the chef asked us to remember the name of kinds of cutting...SHIT!!!I can't remember it la...Too many name there...(blur><)haha~Anyway...I enjoyed my class so much^^

StresS

Today was the 1st day i join the eap class...the class start at 2pm but i enter 2.30pm...when i enter the class,what i feel was scared...either the lecture,the classmate...They all are very pro in english...Me?I'm poor in english...Our lecture asked us to write a sentence about kinds of pollutions IN GROUP...When they were discussed about it,seriously...i can't really understood what they say...In the moment,i have a feeling...I feel STRESS,STRESS,and STRESS!!!OMG~I wanna cry...My tears was in my eyes... Shit!NO NO NO!I'm not going to cry...
What can i do actually？I'm stress now...Who know me？What i'm going to do?I want improve my english...And now...what i think is about my essay...What can i write?Pollution...I HAVE NO IDEA...
STRESS！STRESS！STRESS!
Mummy come kl tomorow...I scare to c her actually...I dun noe how to face her...i dun noe ow to tell her that I hope I can learn the enlish class...But my parents were done too many things 4 me...And I use their money like water...Is't I'm wasting their money now?I dun hope that my mummy will feel disappointed of me...I hope they proud of me...I can do it?Can I trust myself?

moody

看回我的之前写的东西，突然变得很没心情...突然好想他...
想念他所有东西...想起他，突然就很想哭...不知为什么？是因为我还爱他吗？
从我们分手到现在，我都把自己弄得很忙很忙...忙得我快喘不过气...真的很累很累...
我为什么要把自己搞得那么累？为了什么？因为我知道，只要我一有空，我就会胡思乱想！我会想起你...我就会哭...
现在的你过得好吗？一切还顺利吗？很想告诉你我心里的话...
我知道不管我做什么，你都不会回头了...我知道我们不可能了...我知道...所有的一切，我都知道...可是，不知为什么...心里就是很想发信息给你...很想找你...想听你声音...想见你...
每一天晚上，我都回发信息跟你说晚安！那是因为我怕有一天你会把我忘记...我打给你，是想听你的声音...问问你，最近过得好吗？一切还顺利吗？想知道你的近况...可是你不再接我的电话...不再回我的信息...
我怕一个人在家...那时因为我怕我会想起你...我怕孤单...我害怕寂寞...我害怕一个人...我害怕难过的时候没有人把肩膀借给我，让我哭，让我靠...
我真的很累了...要怎么做，才能让自己停止想念你？

一封无情的信息，让我跌入谷里
你发来：“我上巴士了...再见...我们做好朋友...有缘的话以后可能会再回忆起也说不定...希望你能好好的活下去...不要再为我不开心...不值得...再见了...”
看到这信息，我的眼泪掉了下来...我...崩溃了...你知道吗？
我说：“我不要...我只要你...我可以等你...”
你却回我说：“放下吧...听话...答应我好好照顾自己...我承认是我自私...对不起...希望你找到一个比我更适合你的”
这信息你发了两封给我...我好想知道，在你发着信息的时候，你的心情是怎么样的？