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Today was the 1st day i join the eap class...the class start at 2pm but i enter 2.30pm...when i enter the class,what i feel was scared...either the lecture,the classmate...They all are very pro in english...Me?I'm poor in english...Our lecture asked us to write a sentence about kinds of pollutions IN GROUP...When they were discussed about it,seriously...i can't really understood what they say...In the moment,i have a feeling...I feel STRESS,STRESS,and STRESS!!!OMG~I wanna cry...My tears was in my eyes... Shit!NO NO NO!I'm not going to cry...
What can i do actually？I'm stress now...Who know me？What i'm going to do?I want improve my english...And now...what i think is about my essay...What can i write?Pollution...I HAVE NO IDEA...
STRESS！STRESS！STRESS!
Mummy come kl tomorow...I scare to c her actually...I dun noe how to face her...i dun noe ow to tell her that I hope I can learn the enlish class...But my parents were done too many things 4 me...And I use their money like water...Is't I'm wasting their money now?I dun hope that my mummy will feel disappointed of me...I hope they proud of me...I can do it?Can I trust myself?