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I'm not in a good mood after the Ambassador event because the result was disappointed me. It's out of my expectation! Seriously! I was so sad but no one know (I think). But yet, I love my hair style. I kept it (make up and hair style) until I went home because I want to let my dear see it. He promised me will skype with me once he reach home. I want him to see a different look of myself. It's really look different because of the make up. It make me look fierce. So, I wait for him until he back home although I'm really tired. 

Once he reach home, he asked me to wait a while because he had something to do. I said okay. I kept waited for him. 1 hour later... I tried to call him but no one answer the phone. Kept calling like a stupid but still no one answer. At last, he called me back! I asked him what he did just now? His answer make me upset! He said he went to chat with his new manager because his manager said that he is bored! I was like 'WTH'??? I'm angry! My tears dropped non-stop after listen the answer. 

I waited for him although I'm tired just wanna let you see my different look. I still waited for him although my eyes felt pain because of contact lens. I kept waiting for him but at last he told me that he went to accompany his manager. 

I'm upset with him! I removed my make up and hair style. He called me again and asked me to on skype. I said NO! I already removed the make up and everything. Nothing to see already. No need to on anymore. No need already. I tears dropped. I was very sad! 

He kept asked me to on skype. At last, I on. Let him see how sad am I. Let him see how hurt am I. My eyes swollen and red. He kept apologized to me.

Dear, did you think of my feeling? Do you care on me? Do you know that every time I'm waiting for you? Can you please think of my feeling before you do something? Can you let me feel that you care me? Can you stop my tears from dropping?