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Had a fun trip to Genting with Marco, Qi Zhen and Justin. Yesterday night, Marco sms me and said wanna go Genting so asked me whether I want follow or not. Of couse I want follow. It's already 9.30pm and we departed from Sungai Long around 10 something after took Justin and Qi Zhen. Arrived time, I forgot... Sorry. Haha. Jen Yoong and his friends were in Awana having party. So, we joined them once we reached.
Drink, Drank and Drunk. But I didn't drank alcohol because I don't know them. So just drank mineral water. After party, thought to Starbucks have a cup of coffee. There are 7 of us and we only had 1 car which is Myvi. Imaging 7 peoples in a Myvi. How we did that?  7 peoples in a Myvi and you know Genting was a mountain and the road was f*cking bending. I'm going to faint >.< We all became sandwiches. Haha...
When we reeach there, Starbucks was full and we decide to go to Coffee Bean. Sat down then Justin and Qi Zhen order drinks for us. But Coffee Bean was going to close because it's already 2am. At last, they walked to Starbucks and bought drinks to us. Then went back to Awana. Can't sleep after drank the Starbucks cofffee. I'm awake.
Me, Qi Zhen, Yoong, Marco and Justin chating and played at terrace. We played a very disgusting game but we had fun. Haha ^^ Played and chat until 7++am then only went sleep.
Slept for almost 1 hour then wake up. Can't fall in sleep. My mind kept thinking of something. Will talk about it later. After woke up, sat at the terrace and looked at the sky. A very nice view. I LOVE it. Went to having our breakfast after they all woke up except Marco =.= marco always sleep until very late then only wake up. Always be the last people wake up. Our breakfast for today was chicken rice. Hmmm. What I thought was actually not nice like what they said before. I vomited again when we reached hotel after breakfast. My stomach empty again >.<
Fiinally, Marco woke up. But Justin fall in sleep this time. LOL =.= Wait for him to wake up then went to Genting to find Yoong and his gang. We not went to theme park because we don't have extra ticket. *sigh* Walk around Genting while waiting for Justin. Back to KL around 5pm. Went to Cheras find ah Wen to have dinner. Then back home. I'm freaking tired now. So going to sleep after finised this post.

这两天，我的脑海里总在想着一些事。你记得吗？我问你，我每天跟你谈电话，你会不会觉得烦。你记得你是怎么回答我的吗？你说烦是不会，只是有时候会觉得没有自由。当你说这句话的时候，我停顿了一段时间。在这短短的时间，我不知道自己在想些什么。挂了电话后，我一直在想你说的那句话。没自由，没有自己的空间。我好象真的太自私了。不让你交新的女生朋友，不让你去这，不让你去那。反而我要去哪里，你都没阻止过。我真的太自私了。不知道为什么。我很想让你自由，很想让你交女生朋友，很想什么都不过问，很想不是自己一直打给你，让你觉得没自由。很抱歉，我又想起过去了。

过去的我，总是很信任男朋友。任由他交别的女生朋友，任由他去哪里，做什么。我给他的自由，太多了。就因为这些自由，我让他有机会背叛了我，我让他有机会离开了我。即使，他不是一个好男人。刚开始在一起的他，对我来说，是个好男人。一直到我们分开两地的时间久了，我才发现，给了太多的自由，等于给机会他从一个好男人变成坏男人。从一个爱我的男人，变成一个陌生人。

可能就因为这些原因，我害怕了。我怕给了你太多的自由，你会像他一样。我知道你一定会说，他是他，你是你。。可是这毕竟是我经历过的。我的过去，它成了我心里的阴影。它让我没办法给你自由。它让我没办法不时时刻刻要知道你在做什么。很抱歉，我不应该这么想。

我告诉自己，不能一直打给你了。我不要觉得没自由。我告诉自己，不能一直找你了，我要给你属于自己的空间。亲爱的，从今天起，我会改变的。